Tuesday, April 14, 2009


the weather has been taunting me for weeks now. just when it looks like it's about to rain, the sky clears up and it's crystal clear once again. what ever happened to april showers bring may flowers? well tonight may just be the night. i have been praying for weeks now and like Elijah who prayed for rain, i too will not give up. 

Monday, April 13, 2009

Deleted Forever

i dont know how many of you have a gmail acount but there is this tricky little button at the bottom that says DELETE FOREVER. i checked my new messages in my inbox and clicked on one that i wanted to delete, and up popped Delete forever- maybe i have always had different options of deleting, but those are some powerful words. once you click on Delete forever it says, "... your conversation has been deleted." i was really sad when i logged  off today. does this mean i can no longer ever receive mail from this person? it doesnt really matter at all because i deleted something i didnt care about but the words still ring in my head.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Thursday, April 9, 2009

ten minutes longer

i was reading one of jon courson's devotionals yesterday morning and the Lord spoke to me so clearly. he was talking about how so often we are ready to give up before we should. jon made a lot of interesting points and it was so completely encourageing to me. one of the quotes he used in this devotion was about being brave. he said, (loosly translated) those who are brave are'nt brave because they are super spiritual or anything of that sort. they are just brave for ten minutes longer. Oh God give me the courage,strength and endurance to be brave for ten minutes longer!
ill quote in correctly when i actually get out of school for the day!- blessings

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

an ode to all the little people cheering for me in my fridge.

you know that commercial? i think it might have been an aquafina commercial- not sure. well, whatever commercial it may or may not have been, it definitely stuck... to some extent. in the commercial there are different people and they are all having to make choices on what to drink and maybe even eat..(?) i dont know... anyway. every time this person makes a wise choice - meaning a healthy choice, an applause breaks forth from somewhere. im not quite sure where and this may make absolutely no sence at all to you but i kinda remember it. if anyone wants to help my memory out fill free to shoot me a comment. it will probably be maggie. maggie has been harboring all of my memories for 20 years, and the only reason it hasnt been longer, is because im not quite sure how tight we were when i was 1.
MOVING ON... today i lived this commercial. i finally reached my house after a grueling day of school and needed something... last week it was red meat and today my body thought caffein was a good deal. i opened my fridge to find a lonely soda sitting there all by itself blinking it's eyes in interconnectivity ( as meant by interdependence or freedom- not in the other ways...). yet something inside of me refused. i went to the kitchen cabinet to grab a glass, opened the fridge once more for some ice cold H2O. as the water poured into my glass i could hear the crowd cheering. everyone wanted front row tickets to the glass of water - everyone...

Monday, April 6, 2009

                         sent from my regular phone

Friday, April 3, 2009

the beanie i wish i made

turns out a bunch of string gathered on ones head seems to slightly resembles a hat if worked on further... 

soup... soup...

soup. soup. asparagus soup. the more you eat, the more you want to puke... and ode to wisdom teeth and all that comes with.